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Windows to the Soul (Produced by Notebook)

from The Fringe by Notebook.

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On this cross for all to witness
Sacrificed by all the wicked
sick and twisted black magicians
spin those spells and watch..

They told me I was a fake, a punk, and that I was made for nothing. Full of pain, I'd suffer
Now I'm saying "fuck it" and take the punches 'cause they made me tougher
Beat me to the ground like a sign-post, and I cried wolf
but they liked when I'd tried my best to crawl away and not strike
I wanted to swing my fists, but I was scared to get destroyed.
Quieted my voice. Killed the noise of the little boy that was screaming out for a simple choice...
"Let me go and I won't attempt to fit in." It was vicious, wicked, and made me rigid
coined as worth less than a dime o'dozen
beat with sticks and forced to fight 'til my lungs were tight and shrunken
yeah, look at what life has come to...as I look in my eyes, they're sunken
I was made into a beast that hated himself and would spite the others
constantly blacking out & I discovered
suicidal tendencies for the guilt and confusion I was submerged in
smoke & mirrors broken, I'm slightly punctured
and I hope that I recover

the windows to the soul are cracked
peek in and there is nothing left
accept all of me or nothing at all
I'm recovering in the mud from the fall
you were so cunning and hard to resist
and we couldn't truly ignore you
the windows to the soul are cracked..

This is like the life of Jesus Christ.
Improvising themes where I get evil-eyed and nailed for tryna' keep the peace in sight
greedy beasts at every scene I find.
nails and hammers pried inside my feet, no lie. put him in that freaking bible
me oh my, I need to hide where I can dream at night
these nightmares leave me speechless, I could be a mime
quiet storm, no Mobb Deep. but, the Havoc had me pondering
maybe I'm a prodigy; an anomaly, so they squander me
Silk The Shocker said it ain't my fault, and I believe
life can be a fight it seems, but now it's time to bleed
deconstructing everything. DNA rewiring
climbing to the top of Jacob's Ladder in his tight jeans
nail polish, ink on his skin, ignoring your piety
called me a faggot so many times, it doesn't bother me
gender roles, normality, society defining freedom's boundaries
taking off these chains like diamond links..

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you were so cunning and hard to resist,
and we couldn't truly ignore you
watch...

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from The Fringe, released October 31, 2014

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Notebook. Morgantown, West Virginia

Notebook. is an Alternative / Hip-Hop Musician that has been breaking down the boundaries between genres for seventeen years, all while putting his graphic, movie-like journey sonically on display. Limitation in Art is not a rule that he abides by, and the extreme highs and gut-wrenching lows of Notebook.'s life-experience is what also makes his work so relatable. ... more

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