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endless solitude

from endless solitude by Notebook.

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This solitude is my home
It’s calling you, but say no
I’m used to this. I’m not losing it
I’m a fool for thinking I’ve grown
Yeah

There’s a snake inside my psyche doing circles
Scared that maybe I’m just lying and the world knows
Who I am, where I stand
I’m a child, not a man, so alone

I wanna’ die in my sleep at night
So I can see you when I’m ‘bout to take flight
I think the frequency is breakin
Need to reconnect because I’m on another wavelength
I wanna’ die in my sleep at night
Just so I can see what it’s like
Just to feel what you felt. I can’t heal from the guilt
I think the frequency is breakin’. I’m on another wavelength

Am I glitching out? I just sit and pout
What should I do
So, I tear through the wall to the realm that you are
I see your holographic body there, I’m in awe
But, that’s what I want. You say to fight ‘til I’ve had me enough
That I’m too young; that I should keep living on ‘til I am what I haven’t become
That I won’t be successful until I can kick these bad habits with drugs
That I won’t feel any bliss or healing from it when I’m practically numb
You never got to see me sober, and now the honesty is over
It’ll take a lot for me to hold up. It was a robbery from God
He freed you. Shockingly, it’s not what he had told us
It’s probably what got to me the most that I can’t stop the bleeding
Coppin’ pleas for all the things I owe ya

There’s a snake inside my psyche doing circles
Scared that maybe I might lie up in that dirt-hole
Who I am, where I stand
I’m a child, not a man, so alone

I wanna’ die in my sleep at night
So I can see you when I’m ‘bout to take flight
I think the frequency is breakin
Need to reconnect because I’m on another wavelength
I wanna’ die in my sleep at night
Just so I can see what it’s like
Just to feel what you felt. I can’t heal from the guilt
I think the frequency is breakin’. I’m on another wavelength

So alone
Yeah
Yeah

I wanna’ die in my sleep at night
If you ain’t allowed to live, then why the fuck should I
I think the frequency is breakin
I’ma leave the Earth so we can get back into sync then

You’re an apparition. Imagined figment
I hated when our contact was distant
but now I’m here. I’m not trapped.
My fear is all black. It’s voided
Mad enjoyment from the isolation
You and I until the pact is different
When you say to go back, the tears’ll fall
That’s the river I’ll have to swim in
The lady you sent for protection’s reflective of you and I grab the image
Hold her close just to have a semblance
of the motherly love I had as a kid, and I know
My Artificial Angel
I’m dead with you forever

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from endless solitude, released September 22, 2022

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Notebook. Morgantown, West Virginia

Notebook. is an Alternative / Hip-Hop Musician that has been breaking down the boundaries between genres for seventeen years, all while putting his graphic, movie-like journey sonically on display. Limitation in Art is not a rule that he abides by, and the extreme highs and gut-wrenching lows of Notebook.'s life-experience is what also makes his work so relatable. ... more

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